Self sustaining personal mythologies come and go for me, but I think these days mine is particularly dependent on my idea of vulnerability.
It's too bad, because I'm not really that vulnerable, and it's only a set of learned behaviors I have grown so comfortable with holding me in this stasis.
I'm scared for the wrong reasons, I should say, because there life threatening forces are milliseconds or millimeters of protective chassis away from taking what we've decided entitlement to.
My fear has me as somebody I don't know today, doing things I'm not comfortable now doing. I've invested in the today myth to be the self, I've fed into it's legitimacy so I may keep going about my tit for tat daily affairs, confident I am worth everything I know is being deprived of me.
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